"Will always love you more than yesterday" (:
9/10/13
6/6/13
Chances.
Heyy!!
Spent monday, tuesday, wednesday with richard, jesc and kim since they're back from sg, *well though we didn't talk much, cause idk why it seems awkward, but all of the food was amazing anyway hehehe*. Watched fnf6 again with them. Idk why but it isnt as amazing as the first time I saw it. But overall I still love Dom Mia Brian Giselle Letty and others lol
Spent today with alvina and angela. We just ate lunch and uhm took abundant pict and well nothing more.
2 weeks to leave! Kinda excited kinda afraid kinda kinda....
Spent monday, tuesday, wednesday with richard, jesc and kim since they're back from sg, *well though we didn't talk much, cause idk why it seems awkward, but all of the food was amazing anyway hehehe*. Watched fnf6 again with them. Idk why but it isnt as amazing as the first time I saw it. But overall I still love Dom Mia Brian Giselle Letty and others lol
Spent today with alvina and angela. We just ate lunch and uhm took abundant pict and well nothing more.
2 weeks to leave! Kinda excited kinda afraid kinda kinda....
Because when I said I love you, I meant it.
I hope you meant yours too... (:
6/1/13
Oh happy days
And finally my summer holiday begins!!!!
Started today with wandering around and watching fast and furious 6. Seriously the movie is so amazingly excellent!! And and and idk what to say again... But anyway, 18 days more to leave this boring town, super excited hehehe.
Started today with wandering around and watching fast and furious 6. Seriously the movie is so amazingly excellent!! And and and idk what to say again... But anyway, 18 days more to leave this boring town, super excited hehehe.
4/29/13
Promises.
Because people who told me they wouldn't change, change and those who promised me would stay, eventually leave.
.......but then I realize that you're one in a million, you're different (:
4/22/13
So glad you came.
I should be in school now, but please just excuse my laziness to attend bio class. I am not doing anything important today, at home, well, actually I'm doing nothing, but it's faaaar better than sitting in the class quietly and day-dreaming. Maybe I'll do my 10-years-abandoned homework, if an angel suddenly get into my body -which is impossible-, or watch dvd, or stalk people, or just literally do nothing. I'm such a lazybones.
And anyway, I'm a lucky girl. Thank you (:
And anyway, I'm a lucky girl. Thank you (:
4/20/13
Hehehehe.
I want to blog. I want to write something. I want to blog. I want to write something.
Duh. Forget it. I really don't have anything to say. Well, emm, bye :p
Duh. Forget it. I really don't have anything to say. Well, emm, bye :p
4/14/13
4/12/13
Onehundredandtwo.
well, since i have nothing to talk about, then....
1. Think of the last person who said I love you, do you think they meant it?
- yes (:
2. Would you date an 18-year-old at the age you are now?
- yess
3. When’s the last time you were aggravated and happy at the same time?
- when? duh. Don't know.
4. Would you ever smile at a stranger?
- I'm not that friendly
5. Is there someone mad because you’re dating/talking to the person you are?
- idk.
6. Have you heard a song that reminds you of someone today?
- everydayyy
7. What exactly are you wearing right now?
- pajama. ngahaha i know im lame.
8. How often do you listen to music?
- as often as i could.
9. Do you wear jeans or sweats more?
- jeans, i think.
10. Do you think your life will change dramatically before 2014?
- i dont think so.
11. Are you a social or an antisocial person?
- antisocial, literally.
12. Have you ever kissed someone whose name begins with the letter ‘A’?
- maybe alvina or angela? when we're still kids? -...-
13. What about ‘R’?
- hah no.
14. Can you drive a stick shift?
- u mean?
15. Do you care if people talk badly about you?
- much.
16. Are you going out of town soon?
- nope.
17. When was the last time you cried?
- last friday night
18. Have you ever told someone you loved them?
- yes
19. If you could change your eye color, would you?
- nope.
20. Is there a boy who you would do absolutely everything for?
- i am not a silly little girl anymore.
21. Name something you dislike about the day you’re having.
- having a cold, don't know what to do, missing someone
22. Is it cute when guys kiss you on your forehead?
- definitely.
23. Are you dating the last person you talked to?
- you mean my dad? Lol.
24. What are you sitting on right now?
- laying on my bed
25. Does anyone regularly (other than family) tell you they love you?
- nope.
26. Have you ever wanted someone you couldn’t have?
- yes.
27. Who was the last person you talked to before you went to bed last night?
- mom, perhaps?
28. Do you get a lot of colds?
- thankfully, no.
29. Where is the shirt you are wearing from?
- i dont even want to know.
30. Does anyone hate you?
- idk.
31. Do you have any empty alcohol bottles hidden somewhere in your room?
- no -___-
32. Do you like watching scary movies?
- big no.
33. Do you want your tongue pierced?
- no thanks.
34. If you had to delete one year of your life completely, which would it be?
- 2008.
35. Did you have a dream last night?
- err yes, i think.
36. When was the last time you told someone you loved them?
- i dont even remember.
37. Do you think you’ll be married in 5 years?
- absolutely no.
38. Do you think someone has feelings for you?
- idk.
39. Do you think someone is thinking about you right now?
- idk.
40. Did you have a good day yesterday?
- yes.
41. Think back 2 months ago; were you in a relationship?
- nope.
42. In the next 48 hours, will you hang out with a girl?
- yes.
43. Has anyone told you they don’t want to ever lose you?
- yes.
44. What’s the best part about school?
- the amity.
45. Do you have any pictures on your Facebook?
- yes.
46. Do you ever pass notes to your friends in school?
- yeap.
47. Do you replay things that have happened in your head?
- always before sleep.
48. Were you single over the last summer?
- yea.
49. Is your life anything like it was two years ago?
- unfortunately yes -...-
50. What are you supposed to be doing right now?
- nothing.
51. Do you hate the last guy you had a conversation with?
- no.
52. Are you nice to everyone?
- err i hope so.
53. Have you ever liked someone you didn’t expect to?
- yes.
54. Do you think you can last in a relationship for 6 months and not cheat?
- well yes of course.
55. Are you good at hiding your feelings?
- i think so.
56. Do you think you like someone?
- yea.
57. Have you kissed someone whose name starts with a ‘J’?
- no.
58. Do you prefer to be friends with girls or boys?
- i am a girl. so girls.
59. Has anyone of your friends ever seen you cry?
- i think yes.
60. Do you hate anyone?
- who the hell doesnt hate anyone?
61. How’s your heart?
- how how how lol
62. Is there something that happened in your past that you hate talking about?
- yeah.
63. Have you ever cried over a guy?
- so embarrassing, but yes.
64. Who is probably talking a load of crap about you right now?
- haters, perhaps?
65. Are your toenails painted pink?
- nope.
66. Will your next kiss be a mistake?
- no. and never.
67. Girls love it when boyfriends cry; correct?
- ngahahaha, yes (:
68. Have your pants ever fallen down in public?
- no-....-
69. Who was the last person you were on the phone with?
- janet. Bbm voice chat.
70. How do you look right now?
- so ugly.
71. Do you have someone you can be your complete self around?
- yes (:
72. Can you commit to one person?
- yes.
73. Do you have someone of the opposite sex you can tell everything to?
- luckily, yes (:
74. Have you ever felt replaced?
- yea.
75. Did you wake up cranky?
- sometimes.
76. Are you a jealous person?
- yes.
77. Are relationships ever worth it?
- sadly my answer is no.
78. Anyone you’re giving up on?
- no.
79. Currently wanting to see anyone?
- err yes.
80. Name something you have to do tomorrow?
- eating.
81. Last person you cried in front of?
- myself.
82. Is there someone you will never forget?
- yes.
83. Do you think the person you have feelings for is protective of you?
- yes.
84. If the person you wish to be with were with you, what would you be doing right now?
- chatting.
85. Are you over your past?
- yes(:
86. Have you ever liked one of your best friends of the opposite sex?
- no.
87. Is there anyone you can tell EVERYTHING to?
- yes (:
88. If your first true love knocked on your door with apology and presents, would you accept?
- this is bad, but...yes.
89. So, the last person you kissed just happens to arrive at your door at 3AM; do you let them in?
- perhaps he's drunk. so no.
90. Have you ever liked someone who your friends hated?
- no.
91. Will you be in a relationship in 2 months?
- hahaha
92. Is there anyone you know with the name Michael?
- yes.
93. Have you ever kissed a Matthew?
- no
94. Were you in a relationship in January? How was it going?
- no.
95. Were you happy with the person you liked in March?
- yes (:
96. Don’t tell me lies, is the last person you texted attractive?
- hahahaha much:p
97. Who do you have your last texts from?
- him
98. If the person you like says they like someone else, what would you say?
- happy for you both.
99. Have you ever kissed someone older than you?
- grandma?
100. Who’s in your profile picture with you?
- bbm? Bro.
101. Ever kissed under fireworks?
- aww that's romantic.
102. Has anybody ever given you butterflies?
- yea, the entire zoo came though hehehe
1. Think of the last person who said I love you, do you think they meant it?
- yes (:
2. Would you date an 18-year-old at the age you are now?
- yess
3. When’s the last time you were aggravated and happy at the same time?
- when? duh. Don't know.
4. Would you ever smile at a stranger?
- I'm not that friendly
5. Is there someone mad because you’re dating/talking to the person you are?
- idk.
6. Have you heard a song that reminds you of someone today?
- everydayyy
7. What exactly are you wearing right now?
- pajama. ngahaha i know im lame.
8. How often do you listen to music?
- as often as i could.
9. Do you wear jeans or sweats more?
- jeans, i think.
10. Do you think your life will change dramatically before 2014?
- i dont think so.
11. Are you a social or an antisocial person?
- antisocial, literally.
12. Have you ever kissed someone whose name begins with the letter ‘A’?
- maybe alvina or angela? when we're still kids? -...-
13. What about ‘R’?
- hah no.
14. Can you drive a stick shift?
- u mean?
15. Do you care if people talk badly about you?
- much.
16. Are you going out of town soon?
- nope.
17. When was the last time you cried?
- last friday night
18. Have you ever told someone you loved them?
- yes
19. If you could change your eye color, would you?
- nope.
20. Is there a boy who you would do absolutely everything for?
- i am not a silly little girl anymore.
21. Name something you dislike about the day you’re having.
- having a cold, don't know what to do, missing someone
22. Is it cute when guys kiss you on your forehead?
- definitely.
23. Are you dating the last person you talked to?
- you mean my dad? Lol.
24. What are you sitting on right now?
- laying on my bed
25. Does anyone regularly (other than family) tell you they love you?
- nope.
26. Have you ever wanted someone you couldn’t have?
- yes.
27. Who was the last person you talked to before you went to bed last night?
- mom, perhaps?
28. Do you get a lot of colds?
- thankfully, no.
29. Where is the shirt you are wearing from?
- i dont even want to know.
30. Does anyone hate you?
- idk.
31. Do you have any empty alcohol bottles hidden somewhere in your room?
- no -___-
32. Do you like watching scary movies?
- big no.
33. Do you want your tongue pierced?
- no thanks.
34. If you had to delete one year of your life completely, which would it be?
- 2008.
35. Did you have a dream last night?
- err yes, i think.
36. When was the last time you told someone you loved them?
- i dont even remember.
37. Do you think you’ll be married in 5 years?
- absolutely no.
38. Do you think someone has feelings for you?
- idk.
39. Do you think someone is thinking about you right now?
- idk.
40. Did you have a good day yesterday?
- yes.
41. Think back 2 months ago; were you in a relationship?
- nope.
42. In the next 48 hours, will you hang out with a girl?
- yes.
43. Has anyone told you they don’t want to ever lose you?
- yes.
44. What’s the best part about school?
- the amity.
45. Do you have any pictures on your Facebook?
- yes.
46. Do you ever pass notes to your friends in school?
- yeap.
47. Do you replay things that have happened in your head?
- always before sleep.
48. Were you single over the last summer?
- yea.
49. Is your life anything like it was two years ago?
- unfortunately yes -...-
50. What are you supposed to be doing right now?
- nothing.
51. Do you hate the last guy you had a conversation with?
- no.
52. Are you nice to everyone?
- err i hope so.
53. Have you ever liked someone you didn’t expect to?
- yes.
54. Do you think you can last in a relationship for 6 months and not cheat?
- well yes of course.
55. Are you good at hiding your feelings?
- i think so.
56. Do you think you like someone?
- yea.
57. Have you kissed someone whose name starts with a ‘J’?
- no.
58. Do you prefer to be friends with girls or boys?
- i am a girl. so girls.
59. Has anyone of your friends ever seen you cry?
- i think yes.
60. Do you hate anyone?
- who the hell doesnt hate anyone?
61. How’s your heart?
- how how how lol
62. Is there something that happened in your past that you hate talking about?
- yeah.
63. Have you ever cried over a guy?
- so embarrassing, but yes.
64. Who is probably talking a load of crap about you right now?
- haters, perhaps?
65. Are your toenails painted pink?
- nope.
66. Will your next kiss be a mistake?
- no. and never.
67. Girls love it when boyfriends cry; correct?
- ngahahaha, yes (:
68. Have your pants ever fallen down in public?
- no-....-
69. Who was the last person you were on the phone with?
- janet. Bbm voice chat.
70. How do you look right now?
- so ugly.
71. Do you have someone you can be your complete self around?
- yes (:
72. Can you commit to one person?
- yes.
73. Do you have someone of the opposite sex you can tell everything to?
- luckily, yes (:
74. Have you ever felt replaced?
- yea.
75. Did you wake up cranky?
- sometimes.
76. Are you a jealous person?
- yes.
77. Are relationships ever worth it?
- sadly my answer is no.
78. Anyone you’re giving up on?
- no.
79. Currently wanting to see anyone?
- err yes.
80. Name something you have to do tomorrow?
- eating.
81. Last person you cried in front of?
- myself.
82. Is there someone you will never forget?
- yes.
83. Do you think the person you have feelings for is protective of you?
- yes.
84. If the person you wish to be with were with you, what would you be doing right now?
- chatting.
85. Are you over your past?
- yes(:
86. Have you ever liked one of your best friends of the opposite sex?
- no.
87. Is there anyone you can tell EVERYTHING to?
- yes (:
88. If your first true love knocked on your door with apology and presents, would you accept?
- this is bad, but...yes.
89. So, the last person you kissed just happens to arrive at your door at 3AM; do you let them in?
- perhaps he's drunk. so no.
90. Have you ever liked someone who your friends hated?
- no.
91. Will you be in a relationship in 2 months?
- hahaha
92. Is there anyone you know with the name Michael?
- yes.
93. Have you ever kissed a Matthew?
- no
94. Were you in a relationship in January? How was it going?
- no.
95. Were you happy with the person you liked in March?
- yes (:
96. Don’t tell me lies, is the last person you texted attractive?
- hahahaha much:p
97. Who do you have your last texts from?
- him
98. If the person you like says they like someone else, what would you say?
- happy for you both.
99. Have you ever kissed someone older than you?
- grandma?
100. Who’s in your profile picture with you?
- bbm? Bro.
101. Ever kissed under fireworks?
- aww that's romantic.
102. Has anybody ever given you butterflies?
- yea, the entire zoo came though hehehe
4/6/13
You are.
You are strong when you take your grief and teach it to smile.
You are brave when you overcome your fear and help others to do the same.
You are happy when you see a flower and are thankful for the blessing.
You are loving when your own pain does not blind you to the pain of others.
You are wise when you know the limits of your wisdom.
You are true when you admit there are times you fool yourself.
You are alive when tomorrow’s hope means more to you than yesterday’s mistake.
You are growing when you know what you are but not what you will become.
You are free when you are in control of yourself and do not wish to control others.
You are honorable when you find your honor is to honor others.
You are generous when you can take as sweetly as you can give.
You are humble when you do not know how humble you are.
You are thoughtful when you see me just as I am and treat me just as you are.
You are merciful when you forgive in others the faults you condemn in yourself.
You are beautiful when you don’t need a mirror to tell you.
You are rich when you never need more than what you have.
You are you when you are at peace with who you are not.
3/28/13
Vacuous.
I know I shouldn't feel this way but I can't resist it and I don't know why. I'm feeling empty. Hollow. Bored. Blunt. Flat. Numb. Dull. Whatever you want to call it.
It's like I keep doing the same thing everyday, every day for approx 11 years of my life. Don't you just get tired of wake up, go to school - saying I want to go home or I am hungry or wtf is this, laughing with your friends, seeing your crush - go home, take a nap or maybe watch a nice dvd, wake up, have tuition, day-dream, and sleep again. I know I should appreciate everything because tomorrow may never come. But don't you just get the feeling of weariness?
I'm feeling so random tonight. My mood suddenly crashes down and everything seems so wrong. Perhaps it's because I'm sick, and nobody can cheer me up. So I'm sick, my throat and my head hurt like hell. And I can't laugh or shout. And nobody cares. Ikr. Bye.
It's like I keep doing the same thing everyday, every day for approx 11 years of my life. Don't you just get tired of wake up, go to school - saying I want to go home or I am hungry or wtf is this, laughing with your friends, seeing your crush - go home, take a nap or maybe watch a nice dvd, wake up, have tuition, day-dream, and sleep again. I know I should appreciate everything because tomorrow may never come. But don't you just get the feeling of weariness?
I'm feeling so random tonight. My mood suddenly crashes down and everything seems so wrong. Perhaps it's because I'm sick, and nobody can cheer me up. So I'm sick, my throat and my head hurt like hell. And I can't laugh or shout. And nobody cares. Ikr. Bye.
3/24/13
:)
“People come, people go – they’ll drift in and out of your life, almost like characters in a favorite book. When you finally close the cover, the characters have told their story and you start up again with another book, complete with new characters and adventures. Then you find yourself focusing on the new ones, not the ones from the past.”
― Nicholas Sparks, The Rescue
3/20/13
Happiness overload.
Finally the day has come! I eventually get my freedom back hehehe. So last night was the last day of the examination, and everything has gone pretty *sooo* well :D
3/16/13
Begin again.
Took a deep breath in the mirror
He didn't like it when I wore high heels
But I do
Turn the lock and put my headphones on
He always said he didn't get this song
But I do, I do
Walked in expecting you'd be late
But you got here early and you stand and wave
I walk to you
You pull my chair out and help me in
And you don't know how nice that is
But I do
And you throw your head back laughing
Like a little kid
I think it's strange that you think I'm funny cause
He never did
I've been spending the last 8 months
Thinking all love ever does
Is break and burn and end
But on a Wednesday in a cafe
I watched it begin again
You said you never met one girl who
Had as many James Taylor records as you
But I do
We tell stories and you don't know why
I'm coming off a little shy
But I do
And you throw your head back laughing
Like a little kid
I think it's strange that you think I'm funny cause
He never did
I've been spending the last 8 months
Thinking all love ever does
Is break and burn and end
But on a Wednesday in a cafe
I watched it begin again
And we walked down the block, to my car
And I almost brought him up
But you start to talk about the movies
That your family watches every single Christmas
And I want to talk about that
And for the first time
What's past is past
And you throw your head back laughing
Like a little kid
I think it's strange that you think I'm funny cause
He never did
I've been spending the last 8 months
Thinking all love ever does
Is break and burn and end
But on a Wednesday in a cafe
I watched it begin again
But on a Wednesday in a cafe
I watched it begin again
3/10/13
You get me.
Test is coming and I barely can do anything. How am I supposed to survive.___. Just blame my laziness and all those lame excuses.
Anyway I keep telling myself to just survive for one week, and my pain and suffering will be worth it in the end. I promise to work hard to equalize the things i really deserve to get with my efforts. Things will be better in the end, actually. I know hehehe.
Anyway I keep telling myself to just survive for one week, and my pain and suffering will be worth it in the end. I promise to work hard to equalize the things i really deserve to get with my efforts. Things will be better in the end, actually. I know hehehe.
3/6/13
Close to you.
Idk why but I can't write a post with a long long story like other bloggers did-..- probably it's bcs I'm lazy lol. But today I'm gonna share some things that make me happy though I know nobody will care enough to read all of these shits.
- You (:
- Random long chat about anything
- Running man!!!
- FOOD
- New gadget
- High score
- The Amity
- New novel
- Newest GoGirl!
- Singapore
- Good hair day
- Converse
- Shopping
- Family Gathering
- Nice shoes
- K-drama
- Day(s) off from school
- FOREVER 21
- Surprise
- Nice Internet speed
- Skype
- Praying
- Praying
- Sleepzzz
- A decent smile (:
- Friday Saturday Sunday
- Free fast wifi
- Good songs good music
- Nua-ing on bed
- The sims
- Nice quote
- Disneyland
- Long car journey
- Childhood friends
- Birzzle
- H&M
- Girls days out
- Unexpected good moments
- Mastering a new guitar chord
- Knowing new thing
- Gossiping
- Sleep late wake up late
- Dating with my dad
- Sitting on a theatre
- Being praised
- Knowing how blessed I am
- Nice selca
- A beautiful night
- Tumblr
- Going out with you :p
- After-test-feeling
- UNIQLO
- Miiko!
- Absence of any school teachers
- Seeing you smile (:
- Masterchef
- Silly jokes
- Sweet messages
- Conan!
- Winning a game
- Realizing that everything's going to be alright (:
3/2/13
Ours.
Hello finally it's weekend hehehe. So everything has gone really well, minus the assignments and the quizzes lol. Test is coming anyway....
And for those who think I don't know, I know (:
2/23/13
2/17/13
Our little secret.
I should be studying my bio right now, but I can't resist the feeling of blogging hehehe. So these few days have been amazing for me, and everything has gone perfectly perfect, though I will have bio and mand quiz next week hiks.
And anyway, Thank you for have lightened me up (:
And anyway, Thank you for have lightened me up (:
When there was me and you, stuck in the moment, catch me and now payphone. Hehehe.
2/15/13
Together.
I told myself not to expect too much, but I really can't bear the feeling of missing you..
2/11/13
It's always better to feel surprised than disappointed.
Hellooo. It has been so long since the last post uh hahaha. Sorry, but I am busy and there's nothing to talk about..
So today is the third day of cny. The eve, first and second day was fabulous that I could never ask for more hehe. I thank God for giving me such a beautiful family and for considering my wish. I'm such a lucky, happy girl, and I'm grateful of it (:
So today is the third day of cny. The eve, first and second day was fabulous that I could never ask for more hehe. I thank God for giving me such a beautiful family and for considering my wish. I'm such a lucky, happy girl, and I'm grateful of it (:
Well, at least I should be thankful for not being that alone in this Chinese new year,
*if someone knows what I mean* (;
1/19/13
Really.
One of my favorite songs. Was sung by my bf *loljk*. Translation from hangeul lyrics.
We were in love, really
We liked each other, really
Felt like going crazy, felt like I’d burst, really
So let’s leave now again
I miss you again today
Because you remain in my heart and I can’t erase you, really,
I’m hurting like this
Because I love you, tears fall
Because my heart hurts, tears fall again
In case I lose you again, in case I lose you again
My two eyes only look at you
Look at me, who loves you
Because tears fall like this, because tears keep falling,
Even if I’m born again, even if I’m born again, it’s you
I said that I hate the start of goodbyes
But if I love again, if I miss you, really,
Can you come back?
Because I love you, tears fall
Because my heart hurts, tears fall again
In case I lose you again, in case I lose you again
My two eyes only look at you
Look at me, who loves you
Because tears fall like this, because tears keep falling,
Even if I’m born again, even if I’m born again, it’s you
I only see you
I’m waiting and waiting for you
In case you come back, in case you come back again
Even if I’m rained on, even if I walk in the snow
Even if I’m born again, it’s only you
1/14/13
1/8/13
I knew it's you since our eyes met.
My friend once asked me a question.
Previously I answered I would definitely choose my past. Um because maybe I'm such a loyal person and I know how waiting sucks. He did really wait for me right? I should have kept our promise to wait for him too. Or maybe because I was such a tied-up-with-past person.
But now, I change my mind, I will choose my present. Because in that range of time, many things have changed, nothing remains the same anymore, and now he's like a stranger for me bcs he won't know any single new thing about me. Maybe my favorite food or my favorite color has changed. He doesn't know any right? Actually my mind was opened when the exact thing happened in my life. My previous maid came back to work at my house. I am supposed to be happy right? I mean she has already known what I like and dislike, what time I wake up and so on. But in fact although she knows, I've changed, she has changed, everybody has changed. And if I was forced to choose between my present maid or my past maid, I will definitely choose the present one. Because the present is the one that matters most. It taught me that time changes feelings, time changes people, and we really can't do anything about it. When someone walks out from your life, I swear it's for your own good, and someone better and fresher will come. Although people come and go, our lives still go on right? Time doesn't stop for anybody.
The most frightening thing in this world is not dentist nor ghost, but how such an untouchable thing like time and distance, can change our whole life.
"let me ask you a what if question. The story started when you were in secondary school and you were so in love with this guy, and luckily the boy felt the same and you guys finally dated. He's older one year than you. And then, he must continue his study overseas, so you guys were forced to keep a ldr. You contacted each other by Skype, bbm, twitter or whatsapp. One day, the shittiest thing happened. He disappeared, from Facebook, twitter, bbm. You couldnt find him anywhere. You finally gave up on searching for him, and by that time, you were preparing for your univ thingie. One day, one week, one month, one year had passed, and you hadnt even started to forget him. What you couldn't forget the most was his last words, "I'll wait for you, promise me you'll wait for me too". When you finally entered univ, there's one guy who's interested in you. At first you didn't even care about him, but slowly things changed, feelings changed, people grew up, you started to move on and forget him and ended up dating the guy you met in univ. One day, he, the guy from your past, came again in your life, and told you a really make sense reason why he left you. You believed in him, but who will you choose? Your past or your present?"
Previously I answered I would definitely choose my past. Um because maybe I'm such a loyal person and I know how waiting sucks. He did really wait for me right? I should have kept our promise to wait for him too. Or maybe because I was such a tied-up-with-past person.
But now, I change my mind, I will choose my present. Because in that range of time, many things have changed, nothing remains the same anymore, and now he's like a stranger for me bcs he won't know any single new thing about me. Maybe my favorite food or my favorite color has changed. He doesn't know any right? Actually my mind was opened when the exact thing happened in my life. My previous maid came back to work at my house. I am supposed to be happy right? I mean she has already known what I like and dislike, what time I wake up and so on. But in fact although she knows, I've changed, she has changed, everybody has changed. And if I was forced to choose between my present maid or my past maid, I will definitely choose the present one. Because the present is the one that matters most. It taught me that time changes feelings, time changes people, and we really can't do anything about it. When someone walks out from your life, I swear it's for your own good, and someone better and fresher will come. Although people come and go, our lives still go on right? Time doesn't stop for anybody.
The most frightening thing in this world is not dentist nor ghost, but how such an untouchable thing like time and distance, can change our whole life.
And finally I choose park seung ho over skan, and yes, I will definitely choose you over him (:
1/5/13
KPOP.
Well I think this is such a declaration about how I start to love kpop lol.
KPOP Q&A
1. First kpop group: Girls' Generation
2. First kpop song: Blue - BigBang
3. Favorite male kpop group: Super Junior
4. Favorite female kpop group: Girls' Generation
5. Favorite solo artist: Song Ji Hyo
6. Current favorite song: Really - Song Joong Ki
7. Favorite kpop music video: None
8. Favorite ballad: Because it's you - Davichi
9. Catchiest tune: Fantastic baby - BigBang
10. Best male dancer: None
11. Best female dancer: Yuri
12. Best male vocalist: Yesung
13. Best female vocalist: Taeyeon
14. Best male rapper: Kang Gary
15. Best female rapper: none
16. Best male leader: Leeteuk
17. Best female leader: Taeyeon
18. Current song you’re listening to: Not listening to one
19. Previous song you listened to: not listening to one
20. Next song you’ll listen to: Not listening to one
21. Current kpop group addiction: Girls' Generation and Super Junior
22. Current kpop song addiction: Really - Song Joong Ki
23. Female kpop idol bias: Yuri, Yoona, Taeyeon, Krystal
24. Male kpop idol bias: Yesung, Nickhun, Siwan, Kyuhyun, Kris
25. Ultimate bias: Yesung, Nickhun, Yuri
26. Hottest male idol: Yesung
27. Cutest male idol: Nickhun
28. Prettiest female idol: Yuri
29. Cutest maknae: Seohyun
30. MBC, KBS, OR SBS: SBS
31. Are you active on allkpop: NO
32. Favorite couple of WGM: Khuntoria
33. What is your favorite kdrama: so far nice guy
34. What is your favorite variety show: Running man!
KPOP Q&A
1. First kpop group: Girls' Generation
2. First kpop song: Blue - BigBang
3. Favorite male kpop group: Super Junior
4. Favorite female kpop group: Girls' Generation
5. Favorite solo artist: Song Ji Hyo
6. Current favorite song: Really - Song Joong Ki
7. Favorite kpop music video: None
8. Favorite ballad: Because it's you - Davichi
9. Catchiest tune: Fantastic baby - BigBang
10. Best male dancer: None
11. Best female dancer: Yuri
12. Best male vocalist: Yesung
13. Best female vocalist: Taeyeon
14. Best male rapper: Kang Gary
15. Best female rapper: none
16. Best male leader: Leeteuk
17. Best female leader: Taeyeon
18. Current song you’re listening to: Not listening to one
19. Previous song you listened to: not listening to one
20. Next song you’ll listen to: Not listening to one
21. Current kpop group addiction: Girls' Generation and Super Junior
22. Current kpop song addiction: Really - Song Joong Ki
23. Female kpop idol bias: Yuri, Yoona, Taeyeon, Krystal
24. Male kpop idol bias: Yesung, Nickhun, Siwan, Kyuhyun, Kris
25. Ultimate bias: Yesung, Nickhun, Yuri
26. Hottest male idol: Yesung
27. Cutest male idol: Nickhun
28. Prettiest female idol: Yuri
29. Cutest maknae: Seohyun
30. MBC, KBS, OR SBS: SBS
31. Are you active on allkpop: NO
32. Favorite couple of WGM: Khuntoria
33. What is your favorite kdrama: so far nice guy
34. What is your favorite variety show: Running man!
1/1/13
Resolution, I guess lol.
This feeling always comes after I've finished a novel or a k-drama.. Well...
I used to think like a typical normal girl, who cant live without a boy, who thinks ppl who choose money over love are utterly stupid, who thinks love is the most magical thing in this world and who thinks happily ever after did exist. Well maybe I still think that way, since I am still normal, but I don't know since when did my way of thinking alter. People who close to me, will surely say they know since when, and maybe, for the fiftieth time, I will say they're right. Right about everything. Okay, I'm a spoiled brat, I really can't take decision by my own, and I don't deserve to handle something which needs a commitment and a huge responsibility. I WAS, indeed, stupid.
But now things change, I tardily learn that I can't always have everything I want. Sometimes I also have to share. Not everything is about you right? That's why life isn't fair. But then I learn again, that I can be satisfied by achieving something real, something that needs only my fight, not something that needs two hearts to harmonize to be happy. You may say that I'm lying, cause I partially am, but I'm not wholly lying.
And again I used to remind myself that what's meant to be will find a way and good things come to those who wait. But when I waited, what came? Pain, sorrow, grief? Uh what for wasting my blessed life to things like those? I am still young, I shall be happy. Therefore I wept my tears, I erased my fear, I buried my ache and I tried to cherish every single seconds I got. Because life is too meaningless to think about someone who doesn't give a single fuck about you anymore (:
And for the first time, excuse my twaddle.
Ps. And maybe for people who ask, I'm NOT in the process of moving on, moreover heart-break. I AM happy, always. Don't mind, I'm just in random thought. And the cause of it is *jengjengjeng* : innocent man (k-drama) and let go (novel). Teehee!
I used to think like a typical normal girl, who cant live without a boy, who thinks ppl who choose money over love are utterly stupid, who thinks love is the most magical thing in this world and who thinks happily ever after did exist. Well maybe I still think that way, since I am still normal, but I don't know since when did my way of thinking alter. People who close to me, will surely say they know since when, and maybe, for the fiftieth time, I will say they're right. Right about everything. Okay, I'm a spoiled brat, I really can't take decision by my own, and I don't deserve to handle something which needs a commitment and a huge responsibility. I WAS, indeed, stupid.
But now things change, I tardily learn that I can't always have everything I want. Sometimes I also have to share. Not everything is about you right? That's why life isn't fair. But then I learn again, that I can be satisfied by achieving something real, something that needs only my fight, not something that needs two hearts to harmonize to be happy. You may say that I'm lying, cause I partially am, but I'm not wholly lying.
And again I used to remind myself that what's meant to be will find a way and good things come to those who wait. But when I waited, what came? Pain, sorrow, grief? Uh what for wasting my blessed life to things like those? I am still young, I shall be happy. Therefore I wept my tears, I erased my fear, I buried my ache and I tried to cherish every single seconds I got. Because life is too meaningless to think about someone who doesn't give a single fuck about you anymore (:
And for the first time, excuse my twaddle.
Ps. And maybe for people who ask, I'm NOT in the process of moving on, moreover heart-break. I AM happy, always. Don't mind, I'm just in random thought. And the cause of it is *jengjengjeng* : innocent man (k-drama) and let go (novel). Teehee!
2013 yey.
Happy new yearrr!!! Finally it's 2013 ah... Spent my new years eve at a party at royal plus BBQ at one of my mom's friends' house with my family and alvina. I'm glad by wasting the last minutes of 2012 with the people i love (:
I was also busy reading novels and watching k-drama recently...cried so much tho...typical holiday uh.
I was also busy reading novels and watching k-drama recently...cried so much tho...typical holiday uh.
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