Resolution, I guess lol.

This feeling always comes after I've finished a novel or a k-drama.. Well...

I used to think like a typical normal girl, who cant live without a boy, who thinks ppl who choose money over love are utterly stupid, who thinks love is the most magical thing in this world and who thinks happily ever after did exist. Well maybe I still think that way, since I am still normal, but I don't know since when did my way of thinking alter. People who close to me, will surely say they know since when, and maybe, for the fiftieth time, I will say they're right. Right about everything. Okay, I'm a spoiled brat, I really can't take decision by my own, and I don't deserve to handle something which needs a commitment and a huge responsibility. I WAS, indeed, stupid.
But now things change, I tardily learn that I can't always have everything I want. Sometimes I also have to share. Not everything is about you right? That's why life isn't fair. But then I learn again, that I can be satisfied by achieving something real, something that needs only my fight, not something that needs two hearts to harmonize to be happy. You may say that I'm lying, cause I partially am, but I'm not wholly lying.
And again I used to remind myself that what's meant to be will find a way and good things come to those who wait. But when I waited, what came? Pain, sorrow, grief? Uh what for wasting my blessed life to things like those? I am still young, I shall be happy. Therefore I wept my tears, I erased my fear, I buried my ache and I tried to cherish every single seconds I got. Because life is too meaningless to think about someone who doesn't give a single fuck about you anymore (:

And for the first time, excuse my twaddle.

Ps. And maybe for people who ask, I'm NOT in the process of moving on, moreover heart-break. I AM happy, always. Don't mind, I'm just in random thought. And the cause of it is *jengjengjeng* : innocent man (k-drama) and let go (novel). Teehee!