Really.

One of my favorite songs. Was sung by my bf *loljk*. Translation from hangeul lyrics.

We were in love, really

We liked each other, really

Felt like going crazy, felt like I’d burst, really

So let’s leave now again

I miss you again today

Because you remain in my heart and I can’t erase you, really,

I’m hurting like this

Because I love you, tears fall

Because my heart hurts, tears fall again

In case I lose you again, in case I lose you again

My two eyes only look at you

Look at me, who loves you

Because tears fall like this, because tears keep falling,

Even if I’m born again, even if I’m born again, it’s you

I said that I hate the start of goodbyes

But if I love again, if I miss you, really,

Can you come back?

Because I love you, tears fall

Because my heart hurts, tears fall again

In case I lose you again, in case I lose you again

My two eyes only look at you

Look at me, who loves you

Because tears fall like this, because tears keep falling,

Even if I’m born again, even if I’m born again, it’s you

I only see you

I’m waiting and waiting for you

In case you come back, in case you come back again

Even if I’m rained on, even if I walk in the snow

Even if I’m born again, it’s only you

The Amity ♔

I knew it's you since our eyes met.

My friend once asked me a question.

"let me ask you a what if question. The story started when you were in secondary school and you were so in love with this guy, and luckily the boy felt the same and you guys finally dated. He's older one year than you. And then, he must continue his study overseas, so you guys were forced to keep a ldr. You contacted each other by Skype, bbm, twitter or whatsapp. One day, the shittiest thing happened. He disappeared, from Facebook, twitter, bbm. You couldnt find him anywhere. You finally gave up on searching for him, and by that time, you were preparing for your univ thingie. One day, one week, one month, one year had passed, and you hadnt even started to forget him. What you couldn't forget the most was his last words, "I'll wait for you, promise me you'll wait for me too". When you finally entered univ, there's one guy who's interested in you. At first you didn't even care about him, but slowly things changed, feelings changed, people grew up, you started to move on and forget him and ended up dating the guy you met in univ. One day, he, the guy from your past, came again in your life, and told you a really make sense reason why he left you. You believed in him, but who will you choose? Your past or your present?"

Previously I answered I would definitely choose my past. Um because maybe I'm such a loyal person and I know how waiting sucks. He did really wait for me right? I should have kept our promise to wait for him too. Or maybe because I was such a tied-up-with-past person.
But now, I change my mind, I will choose my present. Because in that range of time, many things have changed, nothing remains the same anymore, and now he's like a stranger for me bcs he won't know any single new thing about me. Maybe my favorite food or my favorite color has changed. He doesn't know any right? Actually my mind was opened when the exact thing happened in my life. My previous maid came back to work at my house. I am supposed to be happy right? I mean she has already known what I like and dislike, what time I wake up and so on. But in fact although she knows, I've changed, she has changed, everybody has changed. And if I was forced to choose between my present maid or my past maid, I will definitely choose the present one. Because the present is the one that matters most. It taught me that time changes feelings, time changes people, and we really can't do anything about it. When someone walks out from your life, I swear it's for your own good, and someone better and fresher will come. Although people come and go, our lives still go on right? Time doesn't stop for anybody.

The most frightening thing in this world is not dentist nor ghost, but how such an untouchable thing like time and distance, can change our whole life.

And finally I choose park seung ho over skan, and yes, I will definitely choose you over him (:

KPOP.

Well I think this is such a declaration about how I start to love kpop lol.

KPOP Q&A
1. First kpop group: Girls' Generation
2. First kpop song: Blue - BigBang
3. Favorite male kpop group: Super Junior
4. Favorite female kpop group: Girls' Generation
5. Favorite solo artist: Song Ji Hyo
6. Current favorite song: Really - Song Joong Ki
7. Favorite kpop music video: None
8. Favorite ballad: Because it's you - Davichi
9. Catchiest tune: Fantastic baby - BigBang
10. Best male dancer: None
11. Best female dancer: Yuri
12. Best male vocalist: Yesung
13. Best female vocalist: Taeyeon
14. Best male rapper: Kang Gary
15. Best female rapper: none
16. Best male leader: Leeteuk
17. Best female leader: Taeyeon
18. Current song you’re listening to: Not listening to one
19. Previous song you listened to: not listening to one
20. Next song you’ll listen to: Not listening to one
21. Current kpop group addiction: Girls' Generation and Super Junior
22. Current kpop song addiction: Really - Song Joong Ki
23. Female kpop idol bias: Yuri, Yoona, Taeyeon, Krystal
24. Male kpop idol bias: Yesung, Nickhun, Siwan, Kyuhyun, Kris
25. Ultimate bias: Yesung, Nickhun, Yuri
26. Hottest male idol: Yesung
27. Cutest male idol: Nickhun
28. Prettiest female idol: Yuri
29. Cutest maknae: Seohyun
30. MBC, KBS, OR SBS: SBS
31. Are you active on allkpop: NO
32. Favorite couple of WGM: Khuntoria
33. What is your favorite kdrama: so far nice guy
34. What is your favorite variety show: Running man!

Resolution, I guess lol.

This feeling always comes after I've finished a novel or a k-drama.. Well...

I used to think like a typical normal girl, who cant live without a boy, who thinks ppl who choose money over love are utterly stupid, who thinks love is the most magical thing in this world and who thinks happily ever after did exist. Well maybe I still think that way, since I am still normal, but I don't know since when did my way of thinking alter. People who close to me, will surely say they know since when, and maybe, for the fiftieth time, I will say they're right. Right about everything. Okay, I'm a spoiled brat, I really can't take decision by my own, and I don't deserve to handle something which needs a commitment and a huge responsibility. I WAS, indeed, stupid.
But now things change, I tardily learn that I can't always have everything I want. Sometimes I also have to share. Not everything is about you right? That's why life isn't fair. But then I learn again, that I can be satisfied by achieving something real, something that needs only my fight, not something that needs two hearts to harmonize to be happy. You may say that I'm lying, cause I partially am, but I'm not wholly lying.
And again I used to remind myself that what's meant to be will find a way and good things come to those who wait. But when I waited, what came? Pain, sorrow, grief? Uh what for wasting my blessed life to things like those? I am still young, I shall be happy. Therefore I wept my tears, I erased my fear, I buried my ache and I tried to cherish every single seconds I got. Because life is too meaningless to think about someone who doesn't give a single fuck about you anymore (:

And for the first time, excuse my twaddle.

Ps. And maybe for people who ask, I'm NOT in the process of moving on, moreover heart-break. I AM happy, always. Don't mind, I'm just in random thought. And the cause of it is *jengjengjeng* : innocent man (k-drama) and let go (novel). Teehee!

2013 yey.

Happy new yearrr!!! Finally it's 2013 ah... Spent my new years eve at a party at royal plus BBQ at one of my mom's friends' house with my family and alvina. I'm glad by wasting the last minutes of 2012 with the people i love (:
I was also busy reading novels and watching k-drama recently...cried so much tho...typical holiday uh.