so.. hi!
i decide to open my blog today and reread everything because idk i just
feel sad. and gloomy.
for these past few years, my life has been about hypertension, diabetes,
asthma, hiv/aids, hepatitis, heart failure, TBC and stuffs.
and to make it worse, my life has been all about dengue hemorrhagic fever
for these past 8 months. i am so fucked up i wish everything will be okay in
the end.
i should be studying about the pathophysiology of asthma now... but never
mind i can do it tomorrow.
and this is what i post in 27th December 2011 in my secret blog.. let me
answer it again now, so we can see how much difference i've made in 6 years!
*my answers now will be in italic
1. Think of the last person who said I love you, do you think they meant it?
- hmph, i dont even remember who's the last person.
- yes. i am sure he means every 'i love you' he has ever told me
2. Would you date an 18-year-old at the age you are now?
- emm, nope
- no...
3. When’s the last time you were aggravated and happy at the same time?
- when? duh. maybe when i finally got to see him and knew that he's already
gotten a girlfriend at the same time.
- hmm.. when i got 'A' for my test lol on one side i dont want to get
high GPA because i know i dont deserve it, but on the other side i cant lie to
myself that i am happy to see so many As for my test result
4. Would you ever smile at a stranger?
- im not as friendly as fm :D
- the answer is still no haha
5. Is there someone mad because you’re dating/talking to the person you are?
- idk.
- my answer is still the same. i dont know. maybe yes maybe no
6. Have you heard a song that reminds you of someone today?
- nope. but yesterday, yes.
- no
7. What exactly are you wearing right now?
- pajama. ngahaha i know im lame.
- guess i will never change HAHAHA pajamas of course
8. How often do you listen to music?
- as often as i could.
- not so often lol
9. Do you wear jeans or sweats more?
- jeans, i think.
- still jeans haha
10. Do you think your life will change dramatically before 2012?
- i dont think so.
- ok so the fact is when i go step by step the difference is not quite big,
but when i finally look back, i think my life has changed quite dramatically
since 2012
11. Are you a social or an antisocial person?
- antisocial, literally.
- still, antisocial
12. Have you ever kissed someone whose name begins with the letter ‘A’?
- maybe alvina or angela? when we're still kids? -...-
- if i answer this playfully my bf will surely be so mad at me HAHAHA so
no, never
13. What about ‘R’?
- hah i hope so.
- no :) and i don’t hope so anymore lol
14. Can you drive a stick shift?
- u mean?
- no, but i’ve ever learnt it before.. and recently someone has told me
that he want to teach me the way lol
15. Do you care if people talk badly about you?
- much.
- still. much
16. Are you going out of town soon?
- nope.
- nope
17. When was the last time you cried?
- last friday, i guess.
- cant remember :)
18. Have you ever told someone you loved them?
- my mom?
- every night i tell my bf i love him so much
19. If you could change your eye color, would you?
- nope.
- no
20. Is there a boy who you would do absolutely everything for?
- i am not a silly little girl anymore.
- yes, because i know he will do the same for me too :)
21. Name something you dislike about the day you’re having.
- everybody is busy with their own. he didnt intend to ask me out.
- i didn’t get to meet my lecturer today, or sooner. The fact that i need
to study the pathophysiology of asthma pissed me off lol i thought it was quite
exciting to learn about so i volunteered to do the presentation of it but now nah. i forgot my best friend birthday ):
22. Is it cute when guys kiss you on your forehead?
- definitely.
- absolutely.
23. Are you dating the last person you talked to?
- nope.
- i don’t date my sister.
24. What are you sitting on right now?
- laying on my parent's bed.
- my own bed
25. Does anyone regularly (other than family) tell you they love you?
- nope.
- yes, my bf
26. Have you ever wanted someone you couldn’t have?
- yes.
- i am not going to lie, yes
27. Who was the last person you talked to before you went to bed last night?
- mom, perhaps?
- my bf
28. Do you get a lot of colds?
- thankfully, no.
- i have become so susceptible to
illness now lately…
29. Where is the shirt you are wearing from?
- i dont even want to know.
- china maybe
30. Does anyone hate you?
- idk.
- yes.. maybe? i know i am not a good enough person haha
31. Do you have any empty alcohol bottles hidden somewhere in your room?
- no -___-
- no.. but i am starting to like alcohol better than in the past
32. Do you like watching scary movies?
- big no.
- no but im going to watch one tomorrow haha
33. Do you want your tongue pierced?
- no thanks.
- no thanks.
34. If you had to delete one year of your life completely, which would it be?
- 2008.
- tbh, I don’t want to delete any
35. Did you have a dream last night?
- err yes, i think.
- yes.. weird dream
36. When was the last time you told someone you loved them?
- i dont even remember.
- just now haha
37. Do you think you’ll be married in 5 years?
- absolutely no.
- yes, i think so
38. Do you think someone has feelings for you?
- idk.
- sure, my bf
39. Do you think someone is thinking about you right now?
- idk.
- idk haha i wish
40. Did you have a good day yesterday?
- yes.
- yes.. had an exam and it went quite well, ate lunch and mango shaved
ice cream with the boys and jen, watched Thor for the second time (Chris
Hemsworth is to die for!), went home and watched running man, slept peacefully
at night (except the weird dream part lol)
41. Think back 2 months ago; were you in a relationship?
- nope.
- yes
42. In the next 48 hours, will you hang out with a girl?
- idk.
- i don’t think so. My life is full of unexpected things now
43. Has anyone told you they don’t want to ever lose you?
- yes.
- yes, my bf
44. What’s the best part about school?
- nothing. school is always bad, or maybe worse. worst fits the best.
- school? Nothing’s good about school haha i kind of dislike my school
years lol
45. Do you have any pictures on your Facebook?
- yes.
- yes
46. Do you ever pass notes to your friends in school?
- yeap.
- yes
47. Do you replay things that have happened in your head?
- always before sleep.
- yes, over and over again
48. Were you single over the last summer?
- yea.
- nope
49. Is your life anything like it was two years ago?
- unfortunately yes -...-
- haha i think yes
50. What are you supposed to be doing right now?
- nothing.
- PATHOPHYSIOLOGY OF ASTHMA
BITJ PLS
51. Do you hate the last guy you had a conversation with?
- no (:
- hmm no
52. Are you nice to everyone?
- err i hope so.
- i hope i am a good enough person to everybody. but still i cant please
everyone right
53. Have you ever liked someone you didn’t expect to?
- yes.
- yes
54. Do you think you can last in a relationship for 6 months and not cheat?
- well yes of course.
- i am in a relationship for almost 3 years and neither one of us had
cheated
55. Are you good at hiding your feelings?
- i think so.
- i still think so
56. Do you think you like someone?
- i got a bit confused of my feelings at the moment. so i cant answer you with
yes or no.
- now? i like love care for my bf so much
57. Have you kissed someone whose name starts with a ‘J’?
- no.
- no.. what about ‘S’? lol
58. Do you prefer to be friends with girls or boys?
- i am a girl. so girls.
- BOYS!!!!
59. Has anyone of your friends ever seen you cry?
- i think yes.
- Alvina.. maybe?
60. Do you hate anyone?
- who the hell doesnt hate anyone?
- the number of the people i hate is increasing lol i hate more people
now
61. How’s your heart?
- healing.
- fine… hahaha
62. Is there something that happened in your past that you hate talking about?
- yeah.
- yes
63. Have you ever cried over a guy?
- so embarrassing, but yes.
- yes
64. Who is probably talking a load of crap about you right now?
- haters, perhaps?
- idk, some people who hate me i guess?
65. Are your toenails painted pink?
- nope.
- no
66. Will your next kiss be a mistake?
- no. and never.
- of course no haha he is my future husband how can it be a mistake?
67. Girls love it when boyfriends cry; correct?
- ngahahaha, yes (:
- not really lol
68. Have your pants ever fallen down in public?
- no-....-
- no
69. Who was the last person you were on the phone with?
- yansen, maybe. asking where's him and others.
- fidela. she asked me where i was and where to go
70. How do you look right now?
- weary.
- still, so weary. but cheerful and manic at the same time
71. Do you have someone you can be your complete self around?
- emm my bestfriend?
- around my family, my bf and my best friends
72. Can you commit to one person?
- yes.
- yes.
73. Do you have someone of the opposite sex you can tell everything to?
- luckily, yes (:
- my bf :)
74. Have you ever felt replaced?
- yea.
- yea. now i am feeling so haha
75. Did you wake up cranky?
- sometimes.
- sometimes when i have so many things to do
76. Are you a jealous person?
- yes. i hope my future-boyfie will be one too.
- congratulations cindy! Your bf now is a very jealous person lol
77. Are relationships ever worth it?
- no, ngahahaha.
- yes :)
78. Anyone you’re giving up on?
- yeap.
- had given up on him since a long time ago
79. Currently wanting to see anyone?
- err yes.
- yes
80. Name something you have to do tomorrow?
- eating.
- studying. oh pls
81. Last person you cried in front of?
- dad, and mom.
- i don’t remember lol i guess no one
82. Is there someone you will never forget?
- yes.
- i have never forgotten anyone in my life i guess
83. Do you think the person you have feelings for is protective of you?
- no.
- my bf is so protective of me lol
84. If the person you wish to be with were with you, what would you be doing
right now?
- chatting.
- cuddling. talking about life (or maybe medic stuffs lol)
85. Are you over your past?
- on the way.
- yes, since a long time ago
86. Have you ever liked one of your best friends of the opposite sex?
- no.
- no. my boy best friends and i kind of have platonic relationships lol
87. Is there anyone you can tell EVERYTHING to?
- God maybe?
- my bf… my future husband :)
88. If your first true love knocked on your door with apology and presents,
would you accept?
- this is bad, but...yes.
- no… not anymore lol
89. So, the last person you kissed just happens to arrive at your door at 3AM;
do you let them in?
- perhaps he's drunk. so no.
- yes
90. Have you ever liked someone who your friends hated?
- no.
- i don’t think they hated him. i think they are not just going quite
well
91. Will you be in a relationship in 2 months?
- hahaha i hope so.
- i am in a relationship now and will still be in the next 40 months
before we finally got married
92. Is there anyone you know with the name Michael?
- yes.
- yes.
93. Have you ever kissed a Matthew?
- no, im waiting for the chance to kiss Matthew Caldicott :(
- no
94. Were you in a relationship in January? How was it going?
- no.
- yes.. it’s wonderful :)
95. Were you happy with the person you liked in March?
- no.
- yes of course i am always happy with him haha
96. Don’t tell me lies, is the last person you texted attractive?
- fm and cath is attractive hahaha. (;
- NO hahaha for me they are the weirdest boys in the world
97. Who do you have your last
texts from?
- fm and cath.
- the boys (729)
98. If the person you like says they like someone else, what would you say?
- happy for you both.
- you promise me you will always love me and wont ever leave me. you lie
:)
99. Have you ever kissed someone older than you?
- grandma?
- my bf is older than me
100. Who’s in your profile picture with you?
- nobody.
- my bf
101. Ever kissed under fireworks?
- aww that's romantic.
- no haha i wish
102. Has anybody ever given you butterflies?
- yeah.
- yeah.
