11/30/12

All too well.

I walked through the door with you, the air was cold
But something about it felt like home somehow
And I left my scarf there at your sister's house
And you still got it in your drawer, even now

Oh, your sweet disposition and my wide-eyed gaze
We're singing in the car getting lost upstate
Autumn leaves falling down like pieces into place
And I can picture it after all these days

And I know it's long gone, and that magic's not here no more
And I might be okay, but I'm not fine at all

'Cause there we are again, on that little town street
You almost ran the red 'cause you were looking over me
Wind in my hair, I was there, I remember it all too well

Photo album on the counter, your cheeks were turning red
You used to be a little kid with glasses in a twin-size bed
Your mother's telling stories about you on the tee ball team
You tell me about your past, thinking your future was me

And I know it's long gone, and there's nothing else I could do
And I forget about you long enough to forget why I needed to

'Cause there we are again, in the middle of the night
We're dancing around the kitchen in the refrigerator light
Down the stairs, I was there, I remember it all too well

And maybe we got lost in translation, maybe I asked for too much
But maybe this thing was a masterpiece 'til you tore it all up
Running scared, I was there, I remember it all too well

And you call me up again just to break me like a promise
So casually cruel in the name of being honest
I'm a crumpled up piece of paper lying here
'Cause I remember it all, all, all too well

Time won't fly, it's like I'm paralyzed by it
I'd like to be my old self again, but I'm still trying to find it
After plaid shirt days and nights when you made me your own
Now you mail back my things and I walk home alone
But you keep my old scarf from that very first week
'Cause it reminds you of innocence and it smells like me
You can't get rid of it 'cause you remember it all too well, yeah

'Cause there we are again, when I loved you so
Back before you lost the one real thing you've ever known
It was rare, I was there, I remember it all too well

Wind in my hair, you were there, you remember it all
Down the stairs, you were there, you remember it all
It was rare, I was there, I remember it all too well

11/27/12

Okay then. marry you.

RULES:
1. Put your iTunes, Windows Media Player, etc. on shuffle.
2. For each question, press the next button to get your answer.
3. You must write that song name down no matter how silly it sounds.

4. Have Fun!!

From alvina's blog.

SOMEONE SAYS 'ARE YOU OKAY' YOU SAY?
We own the night (?)

HOW WOULD YOU DESCRIBE YOURSELF?
All too well lololol

WHAT DO YOU LIKE IN A GUY/GIRL? 
There was nothing lolllll

HOW DO YOU FEEL TODAY?
Smile like monalisa

WHAT IS YOUR LIFE'S PURPOSE?
Forget about you!

WHAT'S YOUR MOTTO?
That should be me...ups

WHAT DO YOUR FRIENDS THINK OF YOU?
Gotta find you (?)

WHAT DO YOUR PARENTS THINK OF YOU?
Teardrops on my guitar (?)

WHAT DO YOU THINK ABOUT VERY OFTEN?
Let's go!

WHAT IS 2+2?
Only tears.. well..

WHAT DO YOU THINK OF YOUR BEST FRIENDS?
Payphone! (?)

WHAT IS YOUR LIFE STORY?
Give your(my) heart a break

WHO DO YOU WANT TO BE WHEN YOU GROW UP?
Catching feelings loll

WHAT DO YOU THINK WHEN YOU SEE THE PERSON YOU LIKE?
Hmm Count on you

WHAT WILL YOU DANCE AT YOUR WEDDING?
Hey stephen (?)

WHAT SONG WILL PLAYED AT YOUR FUNERAL?
Cover girl lol (?)

WHAT IS YOUR HOBBY/INTEREST? 
Safe and sound. right!

WHAT IS YOUR BIGGEST FEAR?
Next to you lol (?)

WHAT DO YOU WANT RIGHT NOW?
I am no superman (?)

WHAT DO YOU THINK OF YOUR FRIENDS?
I need a boy lollll (?)

WHAT WILL YOU POST THIS AS?
Marry you

Be here.

"Do you know how stupid you are?"
"Just don't hope too much. It will kill yourself"
"DON'T. Just, please, D O N T"
"This thing isn't right. You shouldn't be like this"
"Listen, everybody's worrying about you. Don't you worry about yourself?"
"Someday, someone will. Trust me"
"He's the first, but he's not the only one"
"And that's what makes him so perfect, because he's unreachable, he's there, he lives in your mind. He's perfect because you create him to be perfect there, don't you see that?"
"Why bother? I mean you still have long way to go right, you will meet new people, and those who dont fight to keep their places in your life, will eventually go away"
"If you're talking about fair unfair, then it's about fate"
"We, as humans, dont have the right to change the way things go"
"So far, every of your wishes is always granted, why so sorrowful only about something you cant change?"
"It's friend-fate, you know, your lines meet, but do not cross"
"It's okay to cry and be sad sometimes, but don't let it interfere other more important things in your life"



“Love can sometimes be magic. But magic can sometimes... just be an illusion.”

11/25/12

Meaningful.

i celebrated my birthday last night with my family and some of those whom i consider as my close friends. well at first, i wanted to invite all of my friends but my dad was like you're-not-even-17-why-so-heboh- -__- -
so everything was fun, really fun. so far it's the best year i guess. oh i know i keep saying it's the best year every year but whatever. i am always happy. sincerely happy. i should say thanks to everyone for making me the happiest girl in the world.

thanks for coming, and thanks for the gifts ( esp. for the dog lol). i love you guys, i really do (:

ps. and what's with that ps in your blog alvinaaaa-_____-


11/19/12

Imma fifteen no more.

Although my birthday is on 19, my bestfriends decided to make the surprise on 18. So last night when I was sleeping soundly, my cousin came and told me that my grandma wanted to talk about sth and ask me to go downstairs. I half-awakely followed her and when I walked until almost the front door, idk how but ketrin's face suddenly popped out of her hiding place and my brain started to digest all of these things. I hurriedly ran upstairs washed my face brushed my teeth and tied my hair. And then I came down and they started to sing happy birthday to me and ask me to blow the candle.
Idk how to express these emotions and feelings, but really, thank you so much. I really thank everyone for the greetings presents and surprises. Thank you for letting me know that I still have so many friends that love me although according to them I'm so calm. And peaceful. And quiet. Lol.
Seriously thank you!!


정말 고마워요!!!!




11/16/12

Missing you like crazy

Yet still haven't finished any of those novels, still got 2 episodes of running man, and my birthday is on the way. Well I think I should be happy of my life... But flu is bugging my happy life, and my whole body is aching. Including my heart and my brain.







난 알아요..

11/11/12

I almost do.

I really think this blog is so dead. Other bloggers write so long stories about their life in each posts while I just keep posting picture.
Well sorry it's not because I'm too lazy to write something.. But my life has really nothing to talk about... Hehehe

11/6/12

Everything has changed.

Call me impatient, but how if chances have never come to me?
Call me picky, but how if there's nothing left to choose?


This really happens to me. Sigh.


11/3/12

Starlight

He has nothing special, he is not handsome, well probably little, lol, he is not so smart and he is not charming at all. He is just... another usual guy.

Anyway, never mind, butterflies never came when I talked to him though. I just like to look at him and see his smile(: