Innocent.

1: What did you do in 2012 that you’d never done before?

- playing guitar

2: Did you keep your new year’s resolutions, and will you make more for next year?

- no and no lol

3: Did anyone close to you give birth?

- yes, my mom's sis' son's wife

4: Did anyone close to you die?

- umm yess

5: What countries did you visit?
- 2012? China, Hk, Macau, Sg, and Malay


6: What would you like to have in 2013 that you lacked in 2012

- umm unlimited cash and someone to share it with lol

7: What dates from 2012 will remain etched upon your memory, and why?

- 18 nov 2012

8: What was your biggest achievement of the year?

- nothing. I've never achieved anything :(

9: What was your biggest failure?

- umm I've never done anything but eating and sleeping so...no, nothing

10: Did you suffer illness or injury?

- I'm suffering from socially awkward and too many fats in my body

11: What was the best thing you bought?

- everything my parent and I've ever bought for me

12: Whose behaviour merited celebration?

- meee!

13: Whose behaviour made you appalled?

- ummm his and her and his and her

14: Where did most of your money go?

- online shopping, books and dvds

15: What did you get really, really, really excited about?

- 2012? My birthdayyyy. 2013? Cnyyy

16: What song will always remind you of 2012?

- butiran debu lol

17: Compared to this time last year, are you: (a) happier or sadder? (b) thinner or fatter? (c) richer or poorer?

- a. happier b. fatter:(:(:(:( c. dunno

18: What do you wish you’d done more of?

- smiling, talking, learning

19: What do you wish you’d done less of?

- crying, eating, caring, thinking

20: How did you spend Christmas?
- went out for dinner


21: Did you fall in love in 2012?
- I did have abundant crushes...


22: What was your favourite TV program?

- running man for ever and always

23: Do you hate anyone now that you didn’t hate this time last year?

- YES

24: What was the best book you read?
- so far nothing appeals me much


25: What was your greatest musical discovery?

- I'm not that into music. I just like to listen to songs. Moreover ballad ones lol

26: What did you want and get?

- truth to be told I've never wanted something or someone so badly.. I want and then that's all. If I get it, it's okay and if I don't, then maybe it's not mine, or perhaps the time isn't right

27: What did you want and not get?

- the ans is above

28: What was your favourite film of this year?

- I'm not that into film. But I really love watching movies in theatre. Maybe I love the theatre, not the movies lol. Umm but I love Tangled

29: What one thing made your year immeasurably more satisfying?

- I never said I love this year

30: How would you describe your personal fashion concept in 2012?
- nothing surprising


31: What kept you sane?

- school? Hmm

32: Which celebrity/public figure did you fancy the most?

- It changes everytime

33: What political issue stirred you the most?
- idk about politics


34: Who did you miss?

- tough question lol

35: Tell us a valuable life lesson you learned in 2012.

- don't wait, bcs you don't know how long it'll take (:

36: Quote a song lyric that sums up your year
- All those days watching from the windows
All those years outside looking in
All that time never even knowing
Just how blind I've been
Now I'm here, blinking in the starlight
Now I'm here, suddenly I see
Standing here, it's all so clear
I'm where I'm meant to be
And at last I see the light
And it's like the fog has lifted
And at last I see the light
And it's like the sky is new
And it's warm and real and bright
And the world has somehow shifted

Merry Gary Christmas!

Christmas eve (:

Yeah finally it's holidayyyy. Spent last Friday at sun and sushi tei with the gang and to help Michelle bought her christmast tree and the ornaments. And then Saturday and Sunday with family and Alvina at brastagi and the hill. And then today with jesc kim richard and vina at mind cafe. Surprisingly they also know that place lol. Well I miss them so much since they only go home twice a year and ehm they are still my friends rightttt lol.

돌보는 주셔서 고마워요. 난 괜찮아요. (:

Harus terpisah (?)

Are looks important in a relationship?
- yess.

Are relationships ever worth it?
- um yess.

Are you a virgin?
- ofc.

Are you in a relationship?
- no.

Are you in love?
- no.

Are you single this year?
- yes.

Can you commit to one person?
- ofc.

Describe your crush
- smart, tall, mature, handsome, puurfect lol.

Do you believe in love at first sight?
- yess.

Do you ever want to get married?
-ofc.

Do you forgive betrayal?
- absolutely no.

Do you get jealous easily?
- yes sometimes.

Do you have a crush on anyone?
- yes (;

Do you shower every day?
- iss ofcc.

Do you think someone has feelings for you?
- umm idk.

Has anyone told you they don’t want to ever lose you?
- yes.

Has someone ever written a song or poem for you?
- no :(

Have you ever cried over a guy/girl?
- yess.

Have you ever experienced unrequited love?
- yes.

Have you ever liked one of your best friends?
- no.

Have you ever liked someone you didn’t expect to?
- umm no.

Have you ever wanted someone you couldn’t have?
- yes.

Have you ever written a song or poem for someone?
- yes.

How old are you?
- 16.

If the person you like says they like someone else, what would you say?
- well, um okay fine.

Is there a boy/girl who you would do absolutely everything for?
- nah I'm not that stupid

Is there anyone you’ve given up on? Why?
- yes. Bcs he just didn't worth it anymore (:

What are five ways to win your heart?
- buy me food, cheer me up, always be there, silly jokes, sweet messages.

What is the biggest age difference you expect between you and your partner?
- five older, two younger.

What is the first thing you notice in someone?
- shoes.

Why did your last relationship fail?
- bcs it just didnt work.

Would you ever date someone off of the Internet?
- no.

What is your opinion about long distance relationship?
- only yes when I'm already reallyreally fall in love with that person.

And anyway, you've lost my trust, pal..

Meet me there tonight.

Exam in 10 days, Christmas in 20 days, New year in 26 days. Not so excited, since I hate November and December, but I'm excited for Chinese new year!!!

Anyway, I really want to know you better, but since everybody's busy that day, we couldn't meet. But never mind, everybody's supporting us right:D:D:D. Guess I should wait until cny? Okay then, since you'll be back in town soon. Anw goodluck for your exam there, and I wish you could say goodluck to me too, or at least teach me physics. And maths. And chemistry.

All I know is a simple name, and I hope everything will turn out magically surprising (:

All too well.

I walked through the door with you, the air was cold

But something about it felt like home somehow

And I left my scarf there at your sister's house

And you still got it in your drawer, even now

Oh, your sweet disposition and my wide-eyed gaze

We're singing in the car getting lost upstate

Autumn leaves falling down like pieces into place

And I can picture it after all these days

And I know it's long gone, and that magic's not here no more

And I might be okay, but I'm not fine at all

'Cause there we are again, on that little town street

You almost ran the red 'cause you were looking over me

Wind in my hair, I was there, I remember it all too well

Photo album on the counter, your cheeks were turning red

You used to be a little kid with glasses in a twin-size bed

Your mother's telling stories about you on the tee ball team

You tell me about your past, thinking your future was me

And I know it's long gone, and there's nothing else I could do

And I forget about you long enough to forget why I needed to

'Cause there we are again, in the middle of the night

We're dancing around the kitchen in the refrigerator light

Down the stairs, I was there, I remember it all too well

And maybe we got lost in translation, maybe I asked for too much

But maybe this thing was a masterpiece 'til you tore it all up

Running scared, I was there, I remember it all too well

And you call me up again just to break me like a promise

So casually cruel in the name of being honest

I'm a crumpled up piece of paper lying here

'Cause I remember it all, all, all too well

Time won't fly, it's like I'm paralyzed by it

I'd like to be my old self again, but I'm still trying to find it

After plaid shirt days and nights when you made me your own

Now you mail back my things and I walk home alone

But you keep my old scarf from that very first week

'Cause it reminds you of innocence and it smells like me

You can't get rid of it 'cause you remember it all too well, yeah

'Cause there we are again, when I loved you so

Back before you lost the one real thing you've ever known

It was rare, I was there, I remember it all too well

Wind in my hair, you were there, you remember it all

Down the stairs, you were there, you remember it all

It was rare, I was there, I remember it all too well

Okay then. marry you.

RULES:
1. Put your iTunes, Windows Media Player, etc. on shuffle.
2. For each question, press the next button to get your answer.
3. You must write that song name down no matter how silly it sounds.
4. Have Fun!!

From alvina's blog.

SOMEONE SAYS 'ARE YOU OKAY' YOU SAY?

We own the night (?)

HOW WOULD YOU DESCRIBE YOURSELF?

All too well lololol

WHAT DO YOU LIKE IN A GUY/GIRL? 

There was nothing lolllll

HOW DO YOU FEEL TODAY?
Smile like monalisa

WHAT IS YOUR LIFE'S PURPOSE?
Forget about you!

WHAT'S YOUR MOTTO?
That should be me...ups

WHAT DO YOUR FRIENDS THINK OF YOU?
Gotta find you (?)

WHAT DO YOUR PARENTS THINK OF YOU?
Teardrops on my guitar (?)

WHAT DO YOU THINK ABOUT VERY OFTEN?
Let's go!

WHAT IS 2+2?

Only tears.. well..

WHAT DO YOU THINK OF YOUR BEST FRIENDS?
Payphone! (?)

WHAT IS YOUR LIFE STORY?
Give your(my) heart a break

WHO DO YOU WANT TO BE WHEN YOU GROW UP?
Catching feelings loll

WHAT DO YOU THINK WHEN YOU SEE THE PERSON YOU LIKE?
Hmm Count on you

WHAT WILL YOU DANCE AT YOUR WEDDING?
Hey stephen (?)

WHAT SONG WILL PLAYED AT YOUR FUNERAL?
Cover girl lol (?)

WHAT IS YOUR HOBBY/INTEREST? 

Safe and sound. right!

WHAT IS YOUR BIGGEST FEAR?
Next to you lol (?)

WHAT DO YOU WANT RIGHT NOW?
I am no superman (?)

WHAT DO YOU THINK OF YOUR FRIENDS?
I need a boy lollll (?)

WHAT WILL YOU POST THIS AS?
Marry you

Be here.

"Do you know how stupid you are?"

"Just don't hope too much. It will kill yourself"

"DON'T. Just, please, D O N T"

"This thing isn't right. You shouldn't be like this"

"Listen, everybody's worrying about you. Don't you worry about yourself?"

"Someday, someone will. Trust me"

"He's the first, but he's not the only one"

"And that's what makes him so perfect, because he's unreachable, he's there, he lives in your mind. He's perfect because you create him to be perfect there, don't you see that?"

"Why bother? I mean you still have long way to go right, you will meet new people, and those who dont fight to keep their places in your life, will eventually go away"

"If you're talking about fair unfair, then it's about fate"

"We, as humans, dont have the right to change the way things go"

"So far, every of your wishes is always granted, why so sorrowful only about something you cant change?"

"It's friend-fate, you know, your lines meet, but do not cross"

"It's okay to cry and be sad sometimes, but don't let it interfere other more important things in your life"

“Love can sometimes be magic. But magic can sometimes... just be an illusion.”

Meaningful.

i celebrated my birthday last night with my family and some of those whom i consider as my close friends. well at first, i wanted to invite all of my friends but my dad was like you're-not-even-17-why-so-heboh- -__- -
so everything was fun, really fun. so far it's the best year i guess. oh i know i keep saying it's the best year every year but whatever. i am always happy. sincerely happy. i should say thanks to everyone for making me the happiest girl in the world.

thanks for coming, and thanks for the gifts ( esp. for the dog lol). i love you guys, i really do (:

ps. and what's with that ps in your blog alvinaaaa-_____-

Imma fifteen no more.

Although my birthday is on 19, my bestfriends decided to make the surprise on 18. So last night when I was sleeping soundly, my cousin came and told me that my grandma wanted to talk about sth and ask me to go downstairs. I half-awakely followed her and when I walked until almost the front door, idk how but ketrin's face suddenly popped out of her hiding place and my brain started to digest all of these things. I hurriedly ran upstairs washed my face brushed my teeth and tied my hair. And then I came down and they started to sing happy birthday to me and ask me to blow the candle.
Idk how to express these emotions and feelings, but really, thank you so much. I really thank everyone for the greetings presents and surprises. Thank you for letting me know that I still have so many friends that love me although according to them I'm so calm. And peaceful. And quiet. Lol.
Seriously thank you!!

정말 고마워요!!!!

Missing you like crazy

Yet still haven't finished any of those novels, still got 2 episodes of running man, and my birthday is on the way. Well I think I should be happy of my life... But flu is bugging my happy life, and my whole body is aching. Including my heart and my brain.

난 알아요..

I almost do.

I really think this blog is so dead. Other bloggers write so long stories about their life in each posts while I just keep posting picture.
Well sorry it's not because I'm too lazy to write something.. But my life has really nothing to talk about... Hehehe

Everything has changed.

Call me impatient, but how if chances have never come to me?
Call me picky, but how if there's nothing left to choose?

This really happens to me. Sigh.

Starlight

He has nothing special, he is not handsome, well probably little, lol, he is not so smart and he is not charming at all. He is just... another usual guy.

Anyway, never mind, butterflies never came when I talked to him though. I just like to look at him and see his smile(:

I knew you were trouble

"Previously I swore I could tell myriad reasons why I should marry him.. But for the time being, he proved me that even waiting for him was wrong."

Fifteen

One more month to sixteen...and what I do to spend the last month of being fifteen is singing this song everytime...

You take a deep breath and you walk through the doors it's the morning of your very first day
You say "Hi" to your friends you ain't seen in a while
Try and stay out of everybody's way
It's your freshman year and you're gonna be here
For the next four years in this town
Hoping one of those senior boys will wink at you and say
"You know I haven't seen you around, before"

'cause when you're fifteen and somebody tells you they love you
You're gonna believe them
And when you're fifteen
Feeling like there nothing to figure out
Well count to ten, take it in
This is life before you know who you're gonna be
Fifteen

You sit in class next to a redhead named Abigail
And soon enough you're best friends
Laughing at the other girls who think they're so cool
We'll be out of here as soon as we can
And then you're on your very first date and hes got a car
And you're feeling like flying
And you're mommas waiting up and you think hes the one
And you're dancing round your room when the night ends
When the night ends

'cause when you're fifteen and somebody tells you they love you
You're gonna believe them
When you're fifteen and your first kiss
Makes your head spin round but
In your life you'll do things greater than dating the boy of the football team
But I didn't know it at fifteen

When all you wanted was to be wanted
Wish you could go back and tell yourself what you know now
Back then I swore I was gonna marry him someday
But I realized some bigger dreams of mine

And Abigail gave everything she had to a boy
Who changed his mind and we both cried

'cause when you're fifteen and somebody tells you they love you
You're gonna believe them
And when you're fifteen, don't forget to look before you fall
Ive found that time can heal most anything
And you just might find who you're supposed to be
I didn't know who I was supposed to be at fifteen

La la la la la .. la la la la la .. La la la la la

Your very first day
Take a deep breath girl
Take a deep breath as you walk through those doors.

Stressed.

Windy

I wonder how this little revelation of life can affect me this much.

Gone

Something has happened today, in my house. It was seriously NOT a big thing but idk why i keep thinking about it. I am not sad bcs of this person, anw it is her right to stop or to continue, but i just feel so disappointed of her. I mean, did all money you get from my parent, legal or illegal, whether it is your own corruption or your salary, are not enough? I mean this has really proven sth. we seriously don't know how things will turn out. In a year, or in a month, or maybe just in seconds. This makes me realize how uncertain things are and how fast things can change. This has also proven that things can't ALWAYS remain the same and Forever is really a taboo word.

Tonight

Okay so I have been so relieved that I have passed my physics quiz. Yeah you know physics sucks. Ops not only physics, math, bio and chemistry sucks too. School sucks anyway~
Anyway how I wish I could go to jkt and watch smtown concert:(

Fall for you.

Just went home from eating dinner at cemara with alvina. And I haven't done my computer project, physics and maths assignments yet duh. Seems like my life is full of homework-...-

One more night.

Just came back home from kalvin's birthday at taipan and grandma's home to hear some lectures and to cuci mata also lol hmm anyway I got maths and physics assignments and chemistry quiz tomorrow and i haven't done ANY single thing. Queen of procrastinating uh.

Sisterhood

Todays school was fun since we played ular tangga which was drew handmadely by caryn. She also brought her tab and we took so many photos lol.

Wishes of the month.